Am I Being Ridiculous?

Two random things happened to me today (and as it’s only 10am I’m wondering what’s coming next!). Last week, the first time in months, I logged in to my Hotmail account. I no longer use it because it was one of those wholey-inappropriate ones that you make up because you think you’re cool!

Anyway, I logged in and found emails from pretty much everyone in my address book asking if I’d been hacked / had a virus! Turns out there had been nearly 2,000 spam emails sent from my address! Oh yes! Someone had been busy! I set about making it right. I sent a personal message to everyone who had emailed to apologise, explain it wasn’t me and asked if they were ok etc (the usual stuff). Score settled.

This morning, whilst checking again, I got a reply from someone. An ex-boyfriend!
Take in to consideration what my email said….

“Hey,

Sorry, I've not checked this account in months and it looks
as though someone hacked it. They only used it for 2 days though,
strange.

Anyway, sorry again!

Jen x”

So, his response was…..

“Lol, that’s ok. Glad you emailed. You seem happy. Everything
ok?

Hope the Audi’s keeping you happy!

xx”

WTF? I remember, word for word, that my last email to him had read “don’t you think you’re new girlfriend would be a little upset if she knew you were still emailing your ex-girlfriend?”, and I meant it in the nicest possible way.

Soldier (let’s call him that – good name, lol, yeah, he was a soldier BTW) had been a little too smitten with me and I’ve never been good at being smothered! I preferred a bit of a relaxed attitude and that’s what I would give back – it’s all in the chase boys!

Soldier is the only person I’ve ever cheated on (I hear you gasp…I know, you knew I was too good to be true (lol))…that’s another story and I definitely got my comeuppance eventually! But even after that he still wanted to carry on with the relationship. Is this boy not a little desperate? Or am I being too harsh?

BTW the Audi reference was as I had a brand spanking new one last time we spoke (3-effing years ago) – until someone rammed my car of a motorway and it was written off – I was in fact heart broken!

50th Post - Things About Me!

I was struggling to come up with a good 50th post. Most people seem to do contests or giveaways for important numbers, but as the 50th has kind of sneaked up on me I've opted out. I need some time to think up a unisex prize! So my first giveaway will be on the 101st post!

I decided that for the 50th post I will tell you some junk about me! You probably think you know some good stuff already, but I'm going to give you more!! Yes, I am feeding your addiction! I'm not sure what number I'll go to as I'm not sure how much I'll be able to think up!! Here goes nothing...

1. I have a handbag fetish, but they have to be ridiculously small

2. I'm really easily scared

3. I'm a qualified lifeguard

4. I know all the words to 80% of songs by Harry Chapin (test me if you like lol)

5. I got a tattoo on my back when I was 17 - before it was "the thing to have"

6. I've never watched a Star Wars movie

7. My bestie moved to Australia 2 years ago and I'm still sad about it

8. I have dreams 6/7 nights a week

9. I've totally abandoned my other blog over the past 3 weeks in favour of this one!!!!

10. My hair is very long and occasionally tucks in my pants! - That's the hair on my head BTW.

11. The photo attached to this post is where I live (and was taken last night)

12. My parents had a house in Florida until I was 15

13. The only famous person I've ever met was Joe Lawrence from Blossom (lol), but my boss knows Chris Martin from Coldplay (nah, I didn't think that counted either)

14. I would rather laugh and pretend I'm ok than cry and let someone in

15. I'm addicted to Gossip Girl

16. I love Ed Westwick / Chuck Bass!!!!!

17. I think I might need glasses / contacts, but don't want to admit it (other than to you)

18. I tell people I've never smoked - but I did (bad girl!) but only for about 2 weeks!

19. My name is Jennifer but it's only used when I'm being told off!

20. When I was little I had an ENT check and ignored the doctor because she called me Jennifer. She sent me to a hearing specialist as she thought I was deaf - clearly just ignorant!

21. I don't have any middle names

22. I can bake a pretty good cake!

23. I procrastinate...a lot

24. I've lost my ability to tell lies (possibly a good thing that I believe comes with age)

25. I can text without looking at the screen with no spellcheck

26. I hum to fill silences

27. I love the sound of rain hitting plastic / glass

28. I'm 100% nonreligious

29. I believe teaching about masturbation in schools would reduce teenage pregnancies

30. I have no idea what I want to do when I "grow up"

31. I used to cut my arms (until I was 18) but to this day I have no idea why!

32. I'm not very good at understanding myself

33. I learned to talk at 13 months and my parents were upset because they couldn't shut me up

34. I can touch my nose with my tongue

35. I have my tragus pierced (with a sparkly blue bar)

36. I'm good at problem solving

37. I struggle to listen positive things people say about me

38. I wish I'd tried to learn one of the many instruments my parents sent me to lessons for

39. I don't like people who lie

40. I struggle to hide it when I don't like someone

41. I don't trust my judgement

42. I buy perfume because I love the bottles (I have 37)

43. The only thing I've ever won was a kissing contest

44. I don't take myself seriously

45. I watched the complete collection of Dawson's Creek in week (I was sick)

46. I stayed up until 5am one of those nights

47. By the end Dawson was irritating me so much I skipped through every scene with him in

48. I love making friends

49. I hope to meet some of you fabulous people in person one day

50. A friend at work is learning French and got it in to her head I must be good at French (WTF?), every time she asks me something I Google it - I have a French translator on my Iphone now!!

50 will do - it was a struggle and this has taken me almost an hour!!!

I'm going to give you a guided tour around my house sometime soon! That's probably not as exciting as I think it is.

#4 - Something I Do Every Day

How we roll...Everything Except The Grill - The purpose of this photo challenge project is to encourage you to pick up your camera and start capturing details of your life. This project should also serve as a way to look at what others are finding to shoot and will hopefully keep you inspired to look for more moments in your life you wouldn't always think to capture with your camera.Our first My Life. In Pictures. challenge will start on March 30th and run through April 3rd.The assignment will be: Monday- Something new, Tuesday- Something on your table, Wednesday- The view from your front door, Thursday- Something you do each day and Friday- Something old. If you need any more details they are listed here.

In this post (go on, have a look, it'll all make sense) I drew a picture! This is actually something I would like to do everyday! But kids, today I'm going to make it happen!!!....several hours later. Gutted! I got to where I was going, set myself up only to realise I'd left my camera memory card firmly plugging into my effing laptop! very distressed!! So I tried my best with the photos, but they aren't that great.

First, the suspense builder...

Yes...you guessed it! This is the famous "Blind Spot"!! It's a little messy you'll see, but this is because our cleaning staff have been reduced in numbers and are now officially only cleaning once a month...erm...yuk!! I would've done it myself but I'm just so super busy (preparing the "Blind Spot" and getting excited) I didn't have time.

Please remember my photos are a little useless because I forgot the camera thing and I had to use my Iphone (for an expensive phone the camera isn't that great!)...anyway...

See, I wasn't lying, I could totally slip in there with the fairies and go to sleep and no-one would know!! Someone in the building has requested I leave it like that so they can bring their dogs in...I'm considering my charges!!

Ok, Ok, Part 2! (This is longer that Forever and I haven't proof read it!)

Firstly, I cannot believe you actually read the previous post! When I went to reply to the first comment (SO@24) it took me like 5 minutes to scroll to the bottom! How did you cope!? I shall make a point to write shorter posts (probably after this one hehe!).

Secondly, I wish to apologise!! I actually ended the last post uber abruptly because I got bored of writing about it! I did actually find I'm not as resentful to the moron that is Steb_16 (lol) as I thought I was. He actually did me a favour, of sorts!

Back to the story.....first picture as promised! Are you loving my anonymity effort? (I'm literally hysterical looking at that picture right now). I look like I've got a form of Trisomy 21 (a chromosomal thing that can cause mosaisism)...kind of!

Anyway...everything was fine until Steb_16 was playing basketball one night, he jumped up to dunk (or whatever it's called...damn, I knew I should've paid more attention in bball lingo class!)!! At 6ft9 he clearly didn't have too much need for jumping, but he was a bit of a show-off like that. So anyway he jumped and another player fowled him and he went headfirst over this lads shoulder and landed right on his wrist. Seriously. I have never seen anything so yukky!! I stood at the side not really sure what to do. I used to be a bit of a flake in a crisis! Now I'm not so bad. We ended up spending the night in A&E. Any normal person might think this was good of me, but not Steb_16. He accused me of all sorts of things because I didn't run over to him "like any other gf would've done". Another long story short...I cried, I apologised, he forgave me!!

Shortly after this, when we were out one night, he had a go at me (screaming) for talking to one of his friends for too long. When we got home I was crying so much I started to hyperventilate and had a panic attack (the only panic attack I have ever had and ever plan on having). Again, possibly another sign for me to leave?? Don't be silly!

It's funny, I was so stupid because following the panic attack I was miserable (we're about 6 months in to the relationship now), I was so unhappy that I actually decided that I had had enough...but I was too scared to end it. Not scared he'd do anything to me, but just too much of a coward I guess. So, I didn't! Yep, rubbish excuse! I'm officially rubbish!

The next few months went by pretty plainly. Steb_16 had seriously injured his wrist (I clearly wasn't that bothered as I can't remember for the life of me what it was that had happened but it was something worse than a straightforward break! I think they might actually have set it back on the wonk!) and couldn't play for about 4 months - so he was pretty dull, miserable and moody (understandable I guess).

(oooh, Joss Stone on AI)

I'm going to wrap this up quickly because I'm bored of talking about him now.

Steb_16 started back at training and things got really bad. His coach told him that he needed less "distractions" and so he decided the idiotic, balding, mid-life crisis bloke was right! (that's what I thought at the time about the coach, I clearly quite like him now lol). Steb_16 told me he was having some "issues" with "us" and that we should probably take a break...what the hell's a break? Are we doing a Ross and Rachel here? I'll be faithful you have fun...

...I think if you meet and have a relationship with someone over the internet you will always be a bit dubious as to whetehr they could do it behind your back - it's easier to hide than actually having a full blown person to person affair with someone. I had fully prepared myself for the reprocussions of what I'm about to tell you! During the "break" I was a bit worried that something else was going on so I checked his email account (I have no idea how I knew his password, ah, I remember....I wonder if it's still the same lol). He had indeed been speaking to someone else (which I'm not going into). Needless to say I told him I knew, he flew off the handle. Now, can you believe that somehow it was all twisted around and in the end I had to apologise for this? His response to my apology was "sorry just doesn't cut it anymore!". Erm. I have no words! He broke up with me the night before one of my GCSE exams, which I told him I failed although I actually didn't (I wanted him to feel bad).

It actually did me a lot of good though. From nowhere I grew a new backbone!! A few months later, after summer break, he got in touch with me and asked to meet up, I said no! When I started uni and he had a bball game in the new city I was living in he asked to meet up, I said no. When one of my friends died at 19 he tried to get in touch again and that was when I changed my number! We are now friends on Facebook but I can't IM him without feeling some kind of rage inside (lol) and I always (not that it's that often) try and gloat about my life and what I'm up to, how great I'm doing - even if it's a pack of lies!

Hmm, this is a bit of an anti-climax isn't it!?

Seriously kids, I must've had "this girl is a mug" written on her forehead though! I had NEVER, not once, let anyone treat me like this before. I was a confident, outgoing and bubbly girl until I met this idiot, who unfortunately I seemed to love! It's ok though because I got my bubbles back in the end...and that's why your reading this!! This is why, when I write about advice I give people, if they go back for more I have no tolerence! I know it's possible to cut yourself off from someone and that's what you have to do!

This is the a-hole now! Funny, I've just turned myself into a Facebook stalker to steal this for you...I'm doing it for the kids!! Hehe xx

The Post I Was Leaving for a While (Steb_16)

I've been arguing with myself all day about what to post today and I've given in and decided on the Steb_16 explanation post! It was a toss up between that, some random thing that I was hoping would come to me as I typed or twentysomethingwriter's writing prompt for the week (I have my album title, band name etc for this but need a bit more time to put it together!).

So here goes nothing (oh, and when I get home I'm going to upload some photos for this post, so if you're reading this and there aren't any photos come on back a little later!!).

As I said over here we met online when I was just 16. Really, I should've known it was going to end badly with my lax attitude towards the whole thing (to begin with) and his over-possessiveness! Seriously, this boy told me I was NOT ALLOWED to wear a bikini when I went to Ibiza with my girlfriends not even 2 months after we had met (met online, not in person!!).

After Ibiza, and before school started in September, Steb_16 made the 400ish journey from his home to mine! That must've been nerve-wracking for him!! We met at the station where this freaky little lady (who clearly thought she was a, very bad, fortune teller) told us, whilst waiting for a taxi, that she "could see marriage in our future". Clearly, not marriage for us together, separately maybe, haha.

To backtrack a little he actually stayed at my parents house that first time! Possibly bizarre I know (this is all seeming quite surreal to me now!), but I had the p-unit wrapped around my little finger in those days and so managed to twist to story a bit (he's a boy I met when he was on holiday here...honest!) and I actually got away with it. These days I'm a rubbish liar!

So anyway, he spent 3 days at my house and I think it's pretty safe to say I fell in love with him, what I thought was love at that age anyway.

It was literally 3 weeks before school started for me in September and Steb_16 was due to start his first year at uni at the same time. He was going to uni near his home town as he had managed to get a spot on their city basketball team as well as the uni team. Now ladies, back in those days he obviously thought I was quite a catch! He decided that he was going to turn down his uni place and try and get into the near uni to me (about 30 miles from my home town... but probably 450 miles from his!!!). When he told me I...yes ME...contacted the basketball team for that city and luckily they were in fact having try-outs the week after he started at uni. Long story short he got a place on the team! Well done Jen!!

God, this is turning epic! I'm trying to speed it up a bit. Hmm, I think I'm going to do a two-parter!! Ok, I'll take it up to December / January of the tale.

So, he moved in to this rough (and I mean seriously bad) house share because he was too late to apply to live on campus. I spent every weekend at this nasty house (ugh) because he claimed to be allergic to my dog (RIP Lucky!). I'm not sure how, at 16, I managed to convince my parents this was a good plan, and it was a year of my life I kind of "lost" as I can't remember having any kind of relationship with them for those 12 LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG months! We spent the weekends clubbing, drinking, having lots of sex and basketball (him playing me watching!).

I made a massive mistake though. Remember Ibiza? Well, I wore a bikini (and I wore damn it well!). I'd sort of forgotten about it once he'd moved down and, seriously, I didn't take him seriously. Anyway, my mistake was having the photos developed (pre-digital) whilst with him for the weekend. OMG I have never seen anyone so mad (apart from the time in Geography when I drew a picture of the teacher, Mr Jones, with his man-junk hanging over the desk and an arrow pointing towards his bald patch saying "Solar Panel for a Sex Machine". Yeah, that didn't go down well with Mr Jones!). Anyway, talk about flying off the handle! Steb_16 was livid!! I think the reaction was a little overdone! I also don't think I've ever been so humiliated in public nor have I ever cried so much in my life! I felt like a little kid (coming from someone who grew up early, having sex and going clubbing at 14, I think this is pretty serious). Do you reckon this would've been a sign for me to leave? Nowadays I would advise anyone who asked me to leave at the first sign of this kind of ridiculousness! But I stayed put. There was a serious amount of grovelling and crying done by me (seriously, this is why I still harbour resentment, did he really have a need to make me feel so, so, I dunno, I don't have the words...it was hideous though). So, eventually he "forgave" me (I'm irritated by just writing that as I DID NOTHING WRONG). We carried on happily for a couple of months bu then...

To be continued...(and I'll post pics later)

To All You Crazy Bloggers

Do you ever lose blogs?

I feel like I’m permanently mislaying the blogs I love. I convince myself I’m “following” them (because I have a million and one bookmarks for my other blog so it makes more sense to me to “follow” them on Blogger – saves me getting confused, which is easily done!), but then 5 days down the line, when said blog hasn’t, apparently, been updated, I realise I was never following it! Gutted! Then there’s a lot of back-reading to be done! It breaks my heart!

I realised this morning that I wasn’t following one of my favourite blogs (Lilyspeak) and my goodness it was a shock! I have no idea how long it’s been since I read her blog but I’m feeling stressed as there’ll be a fair amount of catching up to do! The pressure!!! The even worse case scenario is a I fell in love with one of the first blogs I found via Blogger and I cannot, for the life of me, remember what it was called or how I found it. Talk about devastated! Just in case you know it...it's the blog of a teacher and she has an Autistic pupil who was about to become a main feature!! Please help!

Anyway…this is for you!

Yes you. You reading this I mean you!

Dear ______ (insert as applicable),

I’ve been meaning to write to you for a while now, but the time just never feels right. Somehow I just don’t seem to be able to find the words to say what I want you to know.

We've been dating for almost a month now, it feels like an eternity (in a good way!). I know some of your biggest secrets and you will learn more of mine as the days go by. I can be shy. There are two massive secrets in my life (no, it's not that, I'm definitely a girl!) that I don't yet feel able to tell you. But I will get there.

You haven't yet taken me for dinner or to the cinema or even spoken to me on the phone, but I feel we have something special.

I love that you read the things I write for you and that you leave me little love notes in response (even if you were a little horrified at this post). I love that you keep on coming back and so I love to pop over to your (metaphorical) house and leave you little messages as well!

In short…I love you! It really is that simple and if I had said that I wouldn't had have to write this letter....yes...I am dumb but I'm not blond (sorry if you are blond!).

I love you Mr/s Blogger! I hope you love me too!

Yours faithfully,

Jen

Footnote: In particular there are 16 of you that I especially love....you know who you are! Those 16 boys and girls who openly admit to loving me and also openly admitting that I am in fact fantabulous!!

Further footnote: I have actually sent off the first item for the Accessory Circle today. If you're not already involved and would like to join in just send me an email. To find out more about it click the "Accessory Circle" label in the sidebar on the right!

Yet another footnote: Apologies, I am somewhat retarded when it comes to Blogger (being new and all) and so I couldn't figure out how to stop the indenting quote!!

Writing Prompt - Unspoken

I'd not heard of twentysomethingwriters.com until today but when I stumbled upon it I decided to join in with the "writing prompt". This prompt was entitled "unspoken" - to read the full details head on over to their site here. But I figured, as I've not told a secret in a while, this would kill two birds with one stone (I am so going to write a post on useless and nonsense sayings / phrases we use one day!!). In short, the idea is to write something you would say to someone if you could (but for reasons that don't need to be explained you can't).

Ok, I think I have more than one person to blog about here so each paragraph will be for someone different!

Here goes nothing...

S - Why did you lie to me and break my heart? It would've been so easy to tell the truth, I'm a reasonable person as reasoning goes. I would've coped and it would've ended amicably. Instead you had to drag it out and made it 10 times worse! Then you had to change your mind and make it even worse for me because I had to say no to you, if we got into that vicious cycle we would never have gotten out of it. That was 7 years ago and it still bothers me! I know I say I've forgiven you, but for some reason it still hangs around in my mind. You were mean and you said horrible things...all because of your guilt! I'm not sure I'll ever forgive you, even if I say i have....in fact, I'm going to de-friend you on Facebook!
SP - I'm really sorry I stole your crayons when we were 5! It still bothers me a little!

A - I was such an idiot for being with you! You were the worst of the bunch, you might not have stolen my heart but you stole, lied and deceived. I'm glad you ran away when things got tough because I know what you did. In fact, the whole of the UK knows what you did because it was in a national paper. You did me a favour by leaving!

M - I'm so sorry I hurt you. You were gentle, kind, caring and selfless but I just wasn't there with you! I tried really hard but I just didn't feel the same. I'm sorry for hurting you and not being completely honest from the start but I'm really pleased you found someone who treats you as you deserve to be treated!

K - I forgive you; although it was trivial it caused a lot of hurt and upset for that final year and it made me miserable. I'm glad we're friends again and I was really pleased when you apologised (5 years later!!)...better late than never! I appreciate and value your friendship now we're older.

JR - We didn't get on in the beginning, and it was a very long beginning. You made my life hell whilst growing up and you pushed me out when I should've been on the inside where I belonged. I'm glad everyone can see it now because I felt invisible for a long time. I'm glad you felt bad when you realised what you did, but you can stop now because it's over and everything is fine. Something you may never hear me say out loud, but I do mean it, is that I love you. I'm sorry you'll never get to hear that.

Stevie - Oh Stevie, what did you do!? I hope oneday you figure it all out and come home. No-one's angry, we all just want to know you're ok. It's been almost 2 years without any news. They found your things near where you used to live. Your mum was devastated. We hope you didn't so something bad. There's always another way. Starskey wrote a song about you!! I really hope to see you soon, we all do. Lots of Love xx

Oh my god, I could actually go on with this for hours - I'm not big on speaking my mind out loud so this is actually quite therapeutic hehe! Anyway, before I bore you all and you never come back I shall stop! Maybe I'll continue another day (when I can sneak in a post without anyone noticing!!).

BY THE WAY if you haven't seen my last couple of posts, check them out HERE and HERE, because it’s super and uber cool and the bestest thing ever and you need to join in. It’s my 100% excellent recession busting plan (that, like I’ve said before, I cannot believe the government have never thought of. They’ll catch on soon though – like they did with my idea to print more money!). JOIN IN (or I’ll tell you how much you suck. Well I wont, but I’ll say I did!).

Now You Have To Be Kidding Me! - Part 2!

So, if you didn't already read the previous post now is your time to do so, I'll allow a 5 min recess for reading catch-up over here.

Welcome back...

Following an hour or so of instant emails between myself and Bex (productivity at work took a bit of a bashing this day!) I laid down my true thoughts on the issue. I tend not to get straight to the point for fear of upsetting my friends. But to be quite honest I was getting a bit annoyed that the amazing Miss Bex couldn't see she was being taken for a ride! I know there is a massive difference between giving advice and taking it, but come on, your bf is advertising his sexual services on Gumtree (hello? Gumtree = international - the boy's going global here, it's not just the local newspaper!).

I'll break it down for you - this is what I said to Bex:

1 He's hit you, lied to you, cheated on you, finished with you, got bored with you, used you and stolen from you.

As if number 1 wasn't enough of a reason I thought I would push it home with number 2...

2 STDs are a massive possibility. if he's low enough to advertise his services (at her flat I'd like to add!) he must have some kind of nasty dirty disease - maybe even a plethora (I love that word!)

So, Bex totally took my points and made all the right noises at the right times. She even said "right, that's it, I can't take it any more...it's over!".

Yes, you clever reader, you totally guessed it! She lied!

Apparently it was his friends who set it up as a joke (er...the words "yeah" and "right" spring suddenly to mind!), I'm sure he used the words "sorry" and "I love you" in his many excuses, but sorry sweetheart, sorry doesn't cut it sometimes!

And, guess what, he's trapped her as well now because he booked them a tripped to Las Vegas and it's not for 6 months - who's going to turn down an all expenses paid trip??

I'm struggling to understand! If someone disrespects you so much how can you possibly go back for more! She keeps emailing me now telling me how well things are going and how great he's being.

Is it bad for me to be thinking that I really cannot be bothered to reply (obviously I reply with "that's great" and "I'm really pleased he's being nice")?

Are You Serious? Part 1

This post was the final straw in a long line of things that forced me to start a new blog! I have rushed through the "introductions" because I was ridiculously desperate to share this post and get your thoughts on it!!!

Ok, I hope you think this is as ridiculous as I do

Subject: Bex

Issue: Boy Trouble (really, are you that surprised?)

Last week I had a very panicked email, and I mean it was seriously panicked! You know when you open an email and just from reading the first sentence you get that knot in the pit of your stomach and you just know it's something bad? It was that kind of email!

Opening line "Jen, are you there? I feel sick, this is really bad. I'm scared, I don't know what to do. Please reply". Ok, so it was the entire email and not really just the opening line.

Can you see why I was concerned. So, the things that went through my mind were as follows (you know you can squeeze in a lot of thinking between Outlook pings when you're a bit worried!):

1 - Dumbo has split up with her yet again
2 - She caught an STD from Dumbo
3 - She got fired for too much emailing
4 - Someones died
5 - Dumbo died and I'm going to hell for all the bad things I've said

...and so on. the list was pretty much endless. Anyway, I deleted the actual email by accident before I had chance to email it to my personal account. The gist of it was that Bex had been given Dumbo's Hotmail details (inc. password) but Dumbo himself (he clearly is dumb...you'll see why). Bex went in to find some confirmation details for him and happen to accidentally (hahah) open a Gumtree email. OH MY GOD, I'm a firm believer that you shouldn't snoop unless you are 100% prepared for the consequences of what you might find. What Bex found was definitely not something she was prepared for, she went directly from the email to an ad on Gumtree...

Hi,

Im a 25 year old athletic, confident straight male looking to spice up my
week with occasional nsa sex....Im new to this but have always been keen to experiment.

I can accommodate and would require discretion.

If you need to know anymore message me,

Dumbo (insert real name)

Can you believe it? What would you do if this was your bf or you were the friend of said gf??

I'll post the reality of the situation after I'd heard what you think....get thinking!!

jen xx