Secondly, I wish to apologise!! I actually ended the last post uber abruptly because I got bored of writing about it! I did actually find I'm not as resentful to the moron that is Steb_16 (lol) as I thought I was. He actually did me a favour, of sorts!
Back to the story.....first picture as promised!
Are you loving my anonymity effort? (I'm literally hysterical looking at that picture right now). I look like I've got a form of Trisomy 21 (a chromosomal thing that can cause mosaisism)...kind of!
Are you loving my anonymity effort? (I'm literally hysterical looking at that picture right now). I look like I've got a form of Trisomy 21 (a chromosomal thing that can cause mosaisism)...kind of!Anyway...everything was fine until Steb_16 was playing basketball one night, he jumped up to dunk (or whatever it's called...damn, I knew I should've paid more attention in bball lingo class!)!! At 6ft9 he clearly didn't have too much need for jumping, but he was a bit of a show-off like that. So anyway he jumped and another player fowled him and he went headfirst over this lads shoulder and landed right on his wrist. Seriously. I have never seen anything so yukky!! I stood at the side not really sure what to do. I used to be a bit of a flake in a crisis! Now I'm not so bad. We ended up spending the night in A&E. Any normal person might think this was good of me, but not Steb_16. He accused me of all sorts of things because I didn't run over to him "like any other gf would've done". Another long story short...I cried, I apologised, he forgave me!!
Shortly after this, when we were out one night, he had a go at me (screaming) for talking to one of his friends for too long. When we got home I was crying so much I started to hyperventilate and had a panic attack (the only panic attack I have ever had and ever plan on having). Again, possibly another sign for me to leave?? Don't be silly!
It's funny, I was so stupid because following the panic attack I was miserable (we're about 6 months in to the relationship now), I was so unhappy that I actually decided that I had had enough...but I was too scared to end it. Not scared he'd do anything to me, but just too much of a coward I guess. So, I didn't! Yep, rubbish excuse! I'm officially rubbish!
The next few months went by pretty plainly. Steb_16 had seriously injured his wrist (I clearly wasn't that bothered as I can't remember for the life of me what it was that had happened but it was something worse than a straightforward break! I think they might actually have set it back on the wonk!) and couldn't play for about 4 months - so he was pretty dull, miserable and moody (understandable I guess).
(oooh, Joss Stone on AI)
I'm going to wrap this up quickly because I'm bored of talking about him now.
Steb_16 started back at training and things got really bad. His coach told him that he needed less "distractions" and so he decided the idiotic, balding, mid-life crisis bloke was right! (that's what I thought at the time about the coach, I clearly quite like him now lol). Steb_16 told me he was having some "issues" with "us" and that we should probably take a break...what the hell's a break? Are we doing a Ross and Rachel here? I'll be faithful you have fun...
...I think if you meet and have a relationship with someone over the internet you will always be a bit dubious as to whetehr they could do it behind your back - it's easier to hide than actually having a full blown person to person affair with someone. I had fully prepared myself for the reprocussions of what I'm about to tell you! During the "break" I was a bit worried that something else was going on so I checked his email account (I have no idea how I knew his password, ah, I remember....I wonder if it's still the same lol). He had indeed been speaking to someone else (which I'm not going into). Needless to say I told him I knew, he flew off the handle. Now, can you believe that somehow it was all twisted around and in the end I had to apologise for this? His response to my apology was "sorry just doesn't cut it anymore!". Erm. I have no words! He broke up with me the night before one of my GCSE exams, which I told him I failed although I actually didn't (I wanted him to feel bad).
It actually did me a lot of good though. From nowhere I grew a new backbone!! A few months later, after summer break, he got in touch with me and asked to meet up, I said no! When I started uni and he had a bball game in the new city I was living in he asked to meet up, I said no. When one of my friends died at 19 he tried to get in touch again and that was when I changed my number! We are now friends on Facebook but I can't IM him without feeling some kind of rage inside (lol) and I always (not that it's that often) try and gloat about my life and what I'm up to, how great I'm doing - even if it's a pack of lies!
Hmm, this is a bit of an anti-climax isn't it!?
Seriously kids, I must've had "this girl is a mug" written on her forehead though! I had NEVER, not once, let anyone treat me like this before. I was a confident, outgoing and bubbly girl until I met this idiot, who unfortunately I seemed to love! It's ok though because I got my bubbles back in the end...and that's why your reading this!! This is why, when I write about advice I give people, if they go back for more I have no tolerence! I know it's possible to cut yourself off from someone and that's what you have to do!
This is the a-hole now! Funny, I've just turned myself into a Facebook stalker to steal this for you...I'm doing it for the kids!! Hehe xx
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i loled during some of this but was also sad in some bits but at 16 you don't really know much and at the end of the day its what you learn from the situation that makes the difference, so altho it was a rough time, you are better for it.
i dated some1 after only chatting to them on the phone (africa was little behind on the technology front growing up) and it didn't end well either, but hey i learnt my lesson too.
I dated someone 3 times before I learnt a lesson. Steb seemed possessive and got mad at you for a lot of stupid things. Hindsight is always bad though. You look back and say I wish I did this, but hey, at least you learnt a lesson and now have a backbone!
@ CJS - It's ok, I laughed through writing the whole thing - mainly because it's quite ridiculous!! All girls are suckers to begin with, we just have to learn not to be!! x
@ SB - It's a hard lesson, but we all get there and try not to do the same thing next time! Yup, I do indeed have my backbone, it's quite handy hehe x
I'm glad you've moved on and can look back now knowing he did you a favor!! Though I've never been in a relationship under those pretenses, I've had exes that I look back on now and think, Thank you!! I think most girls know where you're coming from...I'm just glad you are where you are now!
panic filled relationships are bad, if he keeps making you feel guilty and blow things out of proportions, there are no points why you should stay with the guy. I'm glad you move on, you deserve so much better.
You tell him girl! Ick, he sounds yucky. altho reading this post I had to laugh only because he sounds like a dick and yet somehow you ended up having to apologize for crap he shouldve been apologizing for. go figure. sometimes I think I will never understand guys. Thanks for the add! I look forward to reading more of your posts. :D
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